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If only she knew...

So yeah, i went to the church today and hmm, fun? not exactly. It is so hard being secretive and i have to be like, astaghfirullahalazim, to remind myself who i am.


Seriously, it is that hard. So what happened next?

My mum noticed that i wasn't so keen in praying or even going to the church.

So my mum went into my room(luckily i shut the laptop in time),to have a heart-to-heart talk with me.

She told me how upset she was with me because she is so nervous about my coming result.

So i told her i did my best.

My mum was upset that i didn't pray. She said, there will be no success if my effort is not sealed with a prayer.

Hearing this, i could only shut my mouth because it is not possible to retort at such comment.

If only she knew....

that i no longer pray because i am now a Muslim....


Oh, if only she knew....


With that i could only silently cry and my mum just went out of my room, closing the door behind her.


Ya Allah, help me so that i may be stronger.


='(
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  1. The Tea DrinkerNovember 29, 2009 at 2:04 PM

    there's so much similarities between the 2 religion you can hedge on. and for safety you can say what you need to keep yourself from harm's way.

    Allah knows where your heart and faith is and may you are always within His Best Protection.

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  2. AnonymousNovember 29, 2009 at 4:35 PM

    salam
    ala,why so short?
    u should tell us more especially about what u did in the church...
    is it the same thing like u did before u become a muslim?
    or anything else...?
    ~curious~

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  3. s.O.a.PNovember 29, 2009 at 8:40 PM

    aku percaya ko seal ur efforts wif prayers..u do..just not 2 whom she thinks is her god..u r askin 2 Him who hav d greater power over us..He who is righteous 2 b asked from..she just dont noe dat yet..n i believ she will..when d right time comes..hey,keep praying 2 Him who listens n grants wishes..never giv up!

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  4. Cahaya Kegembiraan dan KesyukuranNovember 29, 2009 at 10:28 PM

    ashu~ tq...=')

    Been crying my eyeballs out today...sheesh~

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