My dad's turn

because ALLAH is with me....

Earlier today i was shocked by a text message sent to me from one of my aunt from my dad's side.

"Why didn't you tell me that you've become a Muslim? Sampai hati tak bagitau, bukan perkara tak baik pun."

This raised a question mark in my head. Who told her? She's a Muslim by the way.

Then onwards, after a few exchanging text messages, i finally come to a realization.

I have to tell my dad before he found out from someone else. That would be worst.

So, i started to type on my cellphone.

"Daddy, i've become a Muslim. Ever since i'm at KTT. I am telling you via sms so that you will be clear of why i am doing this and so that you will not hear this from other people who might exaggerate the story. I didn't become a Muslim because i have a boyfriend. Not because i was influenced by my friends. And also not because i wanted to join PAS. But because i have taken interest in Islam ever since i'm at school. I was interested in the real teachings of Islam. If you say that Islam is violent, the real Islam never asked the Muslims to slaughter anyone by their own accords. What trashed the name of Islam is the people who do not follow the real teachings. I didn't change my name because the real teachings of Islam do not ask me to change my name. Islam is also the reason that brought me closer to the family. I hope you understood my decision because you are a counselor, so by right, you should be more rational than anyone else. Its not necessary that once i became a Muslim, the ties between us are no longer there. I didn't cut the ties between us. Everything's the same except for my beliefs. If you say that i didn't learn about Christianity, i already read the bible and learn many things but still, even if you say that every religion is the same, i would still pick this choice i made because if only you knew the real teachings of Islam, you will understand why i chose this religion. I am still Fradella Sandy Telasai. I didn't change my name to 'binti Abdullah' because i don't want you to feel as if i rejected the family. I wrote this sms because i want to make my reason clear to you, because i know that you will cut off the conversation and that would not make my target achieved. I'm an adult now and i know what's best for me. And i think that you, as a father, would have wanted the best for his child. My past academic achievement have no relation to my choice. I assure you i will do my best in USM because i want you to see that my choice is not the limit to my success. Always know that i'm still your daughter no matter what."

And with bismillah, i send the message. After 10 minutes, i received a message from my dad.

"Aku dah tak ada kaitan dengan kau lagi dah. Apa-apa urusan pergi Jabatan Agama Islam."

I couldn't believe what i was reading.

This is too much. Too much....

And afterwards i cried non-stop till my eyes were about to pour blood instead. I feel sad but in the same time,  i am not worried of what will happen to me.

Alhamdulillah ALLAH has given me the strength to still go to class just now even though my eyes were both swollen and red.

InshaALLAH, everything will be okay....:)

Pray so that i will not go down despite all these things happening to me.

Pray that i stay strong.


InshaALLAH, ALLAH is with me...