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Her life, my life

This is a conversation between me and another Muslim revert(she's the same age as me) who i knew way back before i even became a Muslim. Her life in a way, is kind of similar to mine and we shared a lot of things. We have a lot in common except for some things. Hopefully this conversation will not be misinterpreted and see the real message within.












So that's the end of the conversation. There's more but it's not important. A lot have been happening to us even though we seem to be happy and fine. Reality, it's not fine as we said it is. We told them we're good because we don't want to trouble anyone else with our problems. Maybe we seem selfish because we hesitate on telling the truth but the real thing is, we just don't know how to start. We're just afraid. Yes, we're afraid. Living in constant danger made us anxious and more timid. You think this is exaggeration? Bite from our plate then chew, then you'll know.Especially us who reverted at a very young age. Most of us are hiding, not known to most people. But we're hiding to save our iman, to save our aqidah, to save our lives even. Though we seem calm on the outside(or in my case, a little bit wacky), but actually, we're just like a tortoise. The shell we've built around us are for our own protection but inside, we're fragile and easily hurt. But, someday, we will come out of our shell. When the time comes, that is. InsyaALLAH.

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  1. islahmujahidinJanuary 8, 2010 at 3:09 AM

    MasyaALLAH...
    If I've Iman as high as U're..
    ya ALLAH, Give me chance

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  2. anwar azhariJanuary 8, 2010 at 3:26 AM

    im totally speechless.. u gurls r like so tough.. may Allah be with u gurls.. n all of us (the muslims) here..

    its OK.
    its allright.

    go out there n FIGHT3x..!!!

    jihad korg sgt2 lah besar.. in really envy u gurls..

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  3. amie.January 8, 2010 at 10:58 AM

    salam alayk.
    i've just followed ur blog
    never knew you're a convert
    and Subhanallah
    may Allah's blessing with you
    i never can imagine being in your situation
    thanks for this heart and eye-opening post
    stay strong sisters.
    :)

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  4. nadiahJanuary 8, 2010 at 3:16 PM

    Remember that Allah is always with us...=)
    Stay strong!

    I will always be praying for my brothers and sisters in Islam.
    And, insyaAllah, your jihad will not go wasted.

    May Allah continuously bless you guys!

    =D

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  5. Mastura Mohd YusufJanuary 8, 2010 at 5:19 PM

    Assalamualaikum...

    Walaupun kita jauh tapi semoga ALLAH tautkan hati2 kita agar menjadi qudwah pelebar agama yang diredhaiNya. Wahai sahabat.. jika engkau memandang segalanya adalah drp ALLAH, yang menimpakan ujian, yang menjadikan sakitnya hatimu, yang membuat keinginanmu terhalang, yang menyusahkan kehidupanmu, pasti akan damailah hatimu... krn masakan Allah mentakdirkan segalanya terhadapmu utk sesuatu yang sia-sia. Bkn Allah tak tahu derita hatimu, tapi mungkin utk menguji sedlm mana cintamu terhadapNya....

    Add me at ym :) mujahidah_jb

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  6. AnAk iBuJanuary 9, 2010 at 6:36 AM

    ya Allah..

    dunnoe wut to say..
    may Allah give u more strength, proctecting u..always..!!
    juz rememba dat Allah is always by ur side..
    u r chosen by Allah to fight 4 this..

    subhanallah..

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  7. QarnikuriJanuary 9, 2010 at 7:51 AM

    kenapa ramai muslim yg tak pernah appreciate diri mereka dilahirkan Muslim??

    .............

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  8. TheHumbleWayfarerJanuary 9, 2010 at 9:03 AM

    Assalamu'alaikum..Nufas, thanks for sharing this..Subhanallah.i dont know what to say. =(
    sometimes just feel that I take things for grnted by being a born Muslim . may Allah make things easy for both of you..Indeed, we are ought to be a Muslim because we choose to be a Muslim, not because we were born as a Muslim.Agree. =)

    p/s:I think i know who is this friend of urs. just guessing anyway!
    may Allah bless you.

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  9. Eka YucikaJanuary 9, 2010 at 2:45 PM

    Salam

    Hey, be strong k.

    I'm really speechless right now, but i can't do nothing for both of u. maybe at least i just can pray for u..

    just be strong, and keep strong..

    ALLAH bersama orang2 yang sabar

    Tidak di uji seseorang itu melainkan apa yang termampu oleh mereka.. Itu janjiNya.. =)

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  10. Nadhirah ZamroseOctober 23, 2010 at 4:08 PM

    the first time i read ur blog,u didn't tell directly that ure converting but i got it well...i'm so proud of u and yes,u're inspiring.what u did.may Allah be with u (:

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