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2013 in review

So hi. Here I am again after so long. So this will be my first post from my recently bought laptop. Alhamdulillah for His favours. InshaAllah it won't be that hard to post regularly after this, and am currently testing this laptop's sound system by playing Bohemian Rhapsody out loud. So far so good. 

Right.

There's so many 'so's in this post don't you think?

Anyway, coming back to the reason of my comeback, to be honest, I personally think that the hiatus is somewhat needed as I have been in some sort of emotional roller coaster this year. What triggered this post is actually the recent flooding of my news feed with a few people's review of this year by Facebook and I went to my own page and clicked on my own review and I saw...nothing. 

So here's my own review of what happened in 2013 :

1. My first book

To be honest I wasn't really that proud of my first child, if I may call it that, due to the (hear me out, this is my review) terrible prose and everyone that had read it now know how terrible my Malay is and yes, I can bash my own book so, whatever. 

I have my moments though, when I feel grateful for the support people give me, to a point that they would sacrifice their hard-earned money just to buy my book and to my surprise, some even bought one for each family members even when they can obviously share it since they are living under one roof and I can really feel the love there. So, wow, thank you so much.

And not to mention the relief that I feel when some even thanked me because they somehow feel that my book benefits them in their own respective ways and really, alhamdulillah. You can't imagine the load that I feel on my shoulders by publishing this book. I really want it to be worth everyone's money. Honest.

Through this book too, I have made both friends and enemies, and both are very welcomed as it serves to remind me the fact that, everyone is different and some might find me unappealing and lacking, while some might see me as amazing in their eyes. 


2. My dad finally talked to me

It is somewhat relieving I guess, now that the silence is gone but I don't get why people think that my happiness lies in my communication with my dad. 

On a side note, I won't comment on that since I don't really reveal everything anyways. Might as well just shut up. 


3. My birthday date

My birthday date is awesome this year. 13.10.13. Now what could be more awesome than that?


4. My first robbery

This is my first time that I was robbed out of my wits. I am okay now I guess although the effect the robber, whoever it was, left on me had me crawling to Allah for help because being a student, I'm not really that well off to buy another laptop in a jiffy. It has been quite stressful and I couldn't sleep for nights after the incident. It was both tragic and educational. But I am glad, because the robber robbed me of my most valued things, some even held sentimental value, and it caused me great pain because those things that they took were the only valuable things that I had on me, and because of the pain that he/whoever caused me, the incident lead me to Allah, to only hope on Him, and only Him.


5. Lessons

I've learnt lots of lessons of life this year and tears were shed almost all year. 

Some lessons came in mild, but some came in quite severe. 

I've learnt to deal with my own feelings, my own thoughts, the Hell that I forged in my head, and I learned to fight them, and embrace them, and succumb to the meaning of redha and tawakkal to it's deepest. 

I've been my worst, but I have also been my best. 

I am glad. 

I am content. 

And those feelings are hard to come by. Very. 

I guess that is all for 2013. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal, for all circumstances. For real. 

Alhamdulillah. 


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