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The Rocking Hijab no more

Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem. 

Salam alayk. I have been on a hiatus, for not that long I guess, but still, it was a profound hiatus for me. The reason for my going to Kuching was no more than an 'escape' apart from the original reason that brought me there. 

In Kuching, I thought a lot and I came through a lot of self-discovery, and for the last few days, I attended ustaz Nouman Ali Khan's Divine Speech and it was really awesome to be there. Alhamdulillah. 

He said some things that answers most of my life questions and it was during the in between breaks of the seminar that I made this decision; that is, to make The Rocking Hijab a history.

So I made a new blog, using my other google account. If you want to, you can go check it out, because that's where I'll write from now on. 

Of course, I did say these kind of things back in the past, but trust me, this one's different. I am REALLY moving on. 

My reason for this new blog is that it is hard for me to be myself when this blog contains me to only one identity. 

When I write here, I could think of nothing other than the person that I was and I couldn't conform to that identity anymore. That WAS me, but that is not who I am, today. 

Let's face it, people change. People might mistook my actions for quitting but I just want to get rid of that shell that have been restricting me since a few years ago. 

The reason for the blog title is based from a novel that I read when I was 19. Sophie's World is a good novel but somewhat draggy if I were to read it again. 

It is a book about a girl named Sophie who embarks on a philosophical journey. In a nutshell, it is a book about the history of philosophy. Turns out she's not real and she was just a character in a book entitled, guess what, Sophie's World. 

Anyway, the name has nothing to do with what I feel about myself. I am pretty much real, thank you very much. I just like the title. That's all. Of course, it's a personal choice too. No one can argue with that. 

Why Sandy, and not Farah?

Because as much as I love being Farah, I love being Sandy even more. It's ME. And I have always been Sandy ever since I was born. That will never change.

I am me, and I don't conform to one identity. 

This is farewell. I won't delete this blog, but I will write here no longer.

This is me being The Rocking Hijab for one last time. I like it but it doesn't feel like me anymore. After all, the name was too cheesy to begin with. 

Thanks for all the love. 

With that I bid farewell. 

Salam alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh. 





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