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And so...

~bertopeng buat sementara demi agama


After a few sleepless nights, working on the solution to the previous post, i decided to NOT wear the hijab until my condition is stable, meaning, my emotions are at its best, my CGPA also at its best and my ability to debate about why i chose to revert perfected. Well not aiming for perfect but at least, i hope to explain why, in a way that my parents can tolerate with.


Well, the reason that i am so scared if the idea of not wearing the hijab is because i am afraid i get used to the condition and i am also afraid that i can't protect my heart by not covering up.


But suddenly something made me realize that, i won't be worst.


The most important thing is to remember that as long as i hold on to ALLAH, nothing bad is going to happen. InshaALLAH.


Sacrifice. That is what i have to do. So now, after talking to a lot of people about this, i will do what i have to do to keep it a secret, with condition that the people there at USM knew about me so that they won't judge me etc.


So, i'm working on that. Thank goodness my seniors have some connections here and there. InshaALLAH it will go smoothly. :)


USM, be ready to take this girl, for better and for worst. <---sounds like a wedding vow.lol. For the time being, i shall continue masking my identity, until THAT time comes. InshaALLAH. Pray for me. :)
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  1. Khadijah C.June 10, 2010 at 11:48 PM

    AsSalam Alaikum,

    I am just faced with the same situation also... Would love to wear the headscarf now!!! But my family is just unhappy about my reversion in a foreign land...

    I'm doing what you said in your post about empowering ourselves emotionally and getting great grades to show them that we are logically following the best religion and make it our way of life!

    Just a sharing, I'm trying to cover up.. Besides the headscarf, I'm practically covered... So, just begin slowly...

    May Allah(SWT) makes it easy for us to wear our headscarf soon! Ameen~

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  2. a.j.June 12, 2010 at 11:35 PM

    assalamua'laikum sister,

    may Allah SWT help you with your trials and tribulations,

    let me remind you of a prophetic word,

    From Abu Hurairah R.A said,
    Rasululluh SAW said:
    "Those whom Allah wants for them goodness(khairan), He will put tribulation(musibah) upon them"
    [Sahih Bukhari]

    but in practical, bare in mind the maslahat(overall wellbeing) of the religion. Yes the sanctity of the religion have to be protected, but yet again when darurah(emergency), certain acts have to be set aside to protect the overall faith.

    May Allah strengthen your Iman through this and establish a better understanding among families through this ...

    your brother in islam who care as much,
    a.j

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