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A friendly note to all Muslims, regarding reverts, in a nutshell

*copypasted from my Facebook page

I'm a revert; I guess pretty much everyone knows that now. I have been a Muslim since 14th of November 2008, at the age of 18. 


I hid my reversion from my family until 2010, which meant I lived as a Muslim secretly for 2 years. I didn't wear the hijab, I picked my food, I prayed behind locked doors, I kept my internet history clean; I did whatever I can to keep my new faith because I was alone at that time, far away from my Muslim friends since I was living in Sarawak. That was my jihad to protect my syahadah, because I was afraid I might be forced to convert to my former religion.


Then came 2010, I was forced to confess to my parents about my reversion. My mum got upset, my dad disowned me, my other family who I thought would support me turned against me. I was alone, with no one to refer to, and no one cared. I was turned away by Islamic offices when I wanted to claim what was rightfully mine because I had no financial support at that time. I had to move from one place to another because I couldn't stay for too long at one place at a time. I had foster families but I understood they have their own family to cater, so I distanced myself from any attachments, because I was so hurt at that time; I couldn't afford to go lower than that. 


Men came to me with proposals of marriage, my naivety was taken advantage of, I fell hard over and over, and I ended up being depressed. 


True, life is so much easier at the moment; my parents finally accepted me for who I am, I am happily married to a kind family, but all those things only happened after years and years of torment and sadness. 


I am not writing this with grudges in my heart, but I am sick of the repetition of history; when someone shows interest in Islam, you persuade them to become a Muslim, you pushed them to quickly become a Muslim, but when these kind of things happened, we are left alone to our own devices, left to the trying fate that awaits us, us reverts who didn't know that much yet about Islam and were tortured verbally, physically and mentally. And when some of us resorted to convert to their former religion, the very same crowd of Muslims who encouraged us to become Muslims, who then left us on our own to settle our own problems, are the very same people who are so quick to judge and demean us. 


Remember the story of Ammar bin Yassir, who renounced his faith in the face of the kuffars, but silently hiding his true faith in his heart. Only Allah knows what is in the heart, so who are you to judge. 


What I am trying to say is, if you are so quick to push someone into Islam, be sure that you will also be the first line of people who will come to their aid when they needed help.


Another thing, I wonder why people are so quick to persuade not yet Muslims into Islam when there are hundreds and thousands of already Muslims who do not practise Islam.


You are not going to be questioned when you are unable to persuade a not yet Muslim to become a Muslim, but to not take action when Muslims sin openly? I don't know, you tell me.



ps: This post does not apply to people who are not related. Siapa makan cili dia terasa pedas, alright? *peace*
  
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  1. ShobaFebruary 6, 2014 at 3:39 PM

    When i first reverted a bout two years back, someone who had met you before gave me the link of this blog, and indeed, you know not sis, of how much you've helped others like self out there through your words. True, many a time, i've discovered, it are those who call after you with pride who leave you in times of need, and we all have similar experiences scripted in different ways. Even as i'm with my familynow, it's easy for people to say, remember to express your syukr, but honestly, none will ever come to understand the emotional turmoils a revert undergoes being unable to fit into either worlds- the non- Muslim world nor the Malay defined Islamic world. But with time and experiences, i've also been taught, that often times, it are the little things that we overlook in life that make up for everything lost. Like the story of Mariam and the birth of prophet Isa alaihissalam. In the desert, Allah blessed her with food and water. It wouldn't be much in our view- say a few dates and some water from ground.... but it was enough.... and often too Allah gives all the we ever needed above the wants we seek. I pray Allah eases all your worries sis, and fills your heart with calmness... insyAllah

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    1. The Rocking HijabFebruary 6, 2014 at 8:44 PM

      Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal. Thanks for the reminder and may Allah bless u too ameen. :)

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