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Choices

I am faced with choices today; choices I never dared to make :

1) Go on, and suffer the vicious cycle. Suffer from the reactions, the disappointments.

2) Make change, perhaps I'll be happier, and face the aftermath from everyone.

There were two choices, and choosing either one will either change me towards the better, or for worse.

I'm still choosing, considering, thinking that perhaps the idea that I have a choice would calm me, but I know this will be temporary.

I need to make a choice, and my only hope is to go to Him, because I already know what I want to do.

This is my life.

I have a responsibility to live well, or live hell.


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  1. A.April 20, 2014 at 9:24 PM

    Interesting... Choose well young jedi. \m/

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  2. The Rocking HijabApril 20, 2014 at 11:10 PM

    what is that emoji?

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  3. A.April 23, 2014 at 7:55 PM

    That might be something I made up...it's the finger sign, you know, the one they make at metal concerts..kbai.

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