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Be at peace, not in pieces.

In the name of Allah,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran

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I've been thinking a lot about my writer's block dilemma. I wonder is it because I hated writing about my life, or was it because of something else. Turns out, it was because I'm kind of...tired.

I remembered how I was during my early days of reversion. Imaan was so fresh, I can assure you that. No matter what trials and tribulations He gave me, I can always smile even though I did cry a lot too.

It has been 3 years and I guess I'm starting to get kind of weary from all the bruises and cuts I got from the stones and pebbles that life has thrown at me.

My life just seems to get harder, and to tell you the truth, I'm half lying when I say there's nothing exciting happening in my life of current. Well, not half, yes, I was lying.

I'm not whining, really. Just trying to make sense of everything that's happening around me.

Really, I don't know what point I am trying to make here, perhaps none. But until I can figure it out, I'll just take a break for a while and start figuring out what is it that I really want in my life, and how I want my life to end.







"Sometimes we can't just say "Allah has a better plan for us." 
We have to believe He does."
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  1. Muhammad Afiq KamarudinJuly 5, 2012 at 6:29 PM

    Then perhaps, you should really take a break from posting anything in your blog.
    We all have ups and downs in our lives, aite?

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  2. The Rocking HijabJuly 5, 2012 at 6:49 PM

    Yeah, if only it was that easy. :)

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