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Exactly the way I want it to be

In the name of Allah,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran

Was this the life I want?

YES.

Back before I am a Muslim, I used to want things but there is nothing that I want more than wanting to become a Muslim.

Despite the ailments, and sometimes hearing people say, "No, you shouldn't do this. Your parents will this this and this.." and sometimes, "I think you should wait, at least after you finish your studies yadda yadda yadda".

But I WANT it despite what people want me to do. There are times that I feel like wavering but I know it is the right thing to do so I went on with it, and I'm happy with my choice, up till now, never ONCE have I regretted making that decision despite all the shortcomings and tests that Allah has sent me because to compare the hardships with the joy of getting what I want, I think, no, I KNOW it's worth it.

They might think I'm crazy for choosing the higher road or the path less traveled, but I don't care, because the one who will walk that path is me and I would want to live my life according to me, because I'm the one accountable for my actions, and not them.

If I know the path I'm going is gonna be difficult, at least I would want it to be due to my choice, not because someone wanted me to.

My WANTS may be irrational or impossible for some people, but what matters in the end is that I don't think so and I don't even need to explain myself for wanting to live my life the way I want.

Knowing what you want in life is indeed a powerful motivation, because one who stand for nothing, will fall for anything. [Malcolm X]

So I'll keep on standing, no matter how hard the typhoon hit me.

I'll keep living my life how I want it to be, and no one can stop me from doing so, unless Allah has decreed that it is not good for me and that is my limit.

I would rather choose to adhere to His preferences and live hard, than choosing to oblige to people's preferences and invite His wrath.

I will finish strong! Definitely. La hawla wala quwwata illa billah. There is no might and power except by His will.


If Allah brings me to it, He'll bring me through it.


And with that in mind, kept me going to this day. Alhamdulillahi rabbal 'alamin. All praise be to the Lord of the Worlds.


Salam alaik and peace out~



We must hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know, & lose in order to gain. Because some lessons in life, are best learnt through pain.

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  1. secret readerJanuary 8, 2012 at 3:14 AM

    So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.
    Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
    {94:5-6}
    All da best...

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