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In the name of Allah,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran

I have this obsession of changing my fonts/my layout altogether from time to time. For the time being, the layout's okay I think but I think I have to stop changing my fonts now and then.

It was like, "Hmm. This font is too boring." Change. A few hours later, "Hmm. This font is too swirly." And then, "I think I should use font size 14." "Oh now it's too big."

Repeat the above steps as much as you like.

But then, when I come to think of it, who cares whatever font size/type you use?

Oh wait, I do.

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I noticed a lot of things these days (for an annoyingly ignorant person like me, this is quite impressive I must say) and one of them is that, a lot of the local celebrities have started wearing the hijab. Alhamdulillah. But then, I would like to comment(ok, more to membebel actually) on the way people react to their sudden change of 'image'.

I think, for me, it's okay if they started out by wearing the hijab Hana Tajima style etc. I know it is compulsory to cover up properly but then, baby steps are baby steps. You can't force a baby to start walking when they don't even have the strength to stand up yet.

Even back when I started wearing the hijab(that is, right after I embraced Islam), one ustaz advised me not to be so rash in becoming a good Muslim(yes, that's what he said). It is compulsory to cover up properly, and yes, true, I did cover up properly(I think), wearing the bidang 50 size and also all those handsocks etc, but the main thing is to strengthen my aqidah first. My senior even told me that it is not compulsory yet for me to cover up properly if I'm not ready to do so. Slowly. Orang Kelantan kata, koho-koho. This is because if I started out directly wearing tudung besar (large tudung sounds weird), if it so happens that I waver along the way, I couldn't wear a much smaller size hijab because that would be weird, kind of like, wearing the hijab on and off. Simply said, nanti takut tak istiqamah.

But of course, my case is a different matter because all I have ever wanted since high school is wear the hijab and be a good Muslimah(inshaAllah), so when I become a Muslim, I seized that chance to start over in a drastic(and rather extreme you might say, because I'm just an extreme in personality. True story.). But I also have my step-by-step process.

I remembered the one thing that I wasn't able to shake off back then was my jeans. I just couldn't live without 'em and alhamdulillah, when I enrolled for my degree course here, I started wearing the jilbab and ditched my jeans once and for all. Alhamdulillah.

Oh. And I camwhore too.

For me, if your inner core is strengthened, inshaAllah, it will be reflected on the outside, sooner or later. But of course, just don't wait too long for it. It's okay to take your time to adapt to the change, but once you feel alright with your change, you need to improve until you finally fulfilled the right way of covering up as commanded by our Lord. InshaAllah, Allah will ease your struggles. After all, nak buat benda baik, inshaAllah, Allah tolong. And also, I believe it's not a case of dah sampai seru ke belum. It's whether you want it or not, because if you want it, surely, you will try to do it by all means. Like the saying, di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada highway. Ok, dah start merepek.

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My point is, bila ada orang nak berubah, dari free hair ke pakai tudung, tak kisah la dia nak pakai yang jenis Hana Tajima ke, Yuna ke, sebab sometimes, background pun mempengaruhi jugak. Celebs for example, their background is like, so challenging I think. Dengan shooting tak kira masa solat, dengan peers yang duk pegi clubbing, memang payah nak berubah so even the slightest effort tu pun, kalau nak dikecam, kesian la. Supposedly bagi support. Tak kisahla #retis(baca: artis) ke tak ke, even kawan-kawan sendiri pun, support man, support! Susah nau ke?

Again, I'm not saying it's okay to wear the hijab improperly, don't get me wrong here. I'm just saying, mula-mula, takpe. Tapiiiii jangan lama-lama berada dalam tahap tu. Okay? :D Sebab tutup aurat tu wajib dan takda alasan untuk tak tutup aurat, so harusla mengikut cara menutup aurat yang sebenar. Sekian terima kasih.

I'm getting redundant. :| *straightface*

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So anyway, I will be having my dental final exam tomorrow so yeah, I should be studying but nooooo I am here writing this stuff instead.

So I'm just gonna go, you know, study.

Study. Study. Study.

Babai for now.


Salam alaik and peace owt.




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