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I'm taking a sabbatical

In the name of Allah,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran

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You know, the last thing I want after all that is for my intention of blogging to be questioned. This post is not signalling my return or whatsoever, for I see no point of blogging, at least, not for now.

I try to analyze why is it that it is so hard for me to take up criticisms and I realized that it was because of my self-blaming trait. I tend to see the worst in myself and look at a perspective that seems to make everything is my fault and that I am the worst. I do not deserve this self reprimanding but how will I ever change that when it has been programmed into me since I was a kid?

Good parenting is everything, which is the exact reason why I will not belittle my future kids, no matter what. Because I know it stays with you, even when you're already changed for the better, and because of that it is really difficult for me when I read comments that seems to hide a subtle message within, as if saying I am not grateful enough, as if saying I am not sincere enough, or as if I am not really being a Muslim by not being able to withstand a trial as small as this. 

You know, it's hard enough growing up with the idea that I will never be good enough, or the idea that I am just a burden, and that everything is my fault. I feel that I shouldn't be reprimanded, at least not in my own blog.

Of course, I acknowledge the fact that more people are seeing the benefit in my writings than the ones who don't, but yes, you tend to see the bad things. Perhaps I'm just similar with them after all.

So I'll be resting for a while. At least until I tackle my own issues and realize that these bad apples are not worth thinking of. 


Salam alaykum and peace out. 





"Sometimes we can't just say "Allah has a better plan for us." 
We have to believe He does."
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  1. UnknownMay 21, 2013 at 9:57 AM

    Take care Farah... ❤❤❤

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  2. AnonymousMay 21, 2013 at 2:21 PM

    Hi assaamualaikum

    Me again, life is so short. Be happy and smile a lot. Have fun

    Fine regards
    Abdûl Azîz

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  3. A.May 22, 2013 at 12:27 AM

    You know what, this whole situation reminds me of the time I got sorted into Hufflepuff on Pottermore and there was this bitter guy who kept saying nasty things about us on the comments board. He was going on and on about how stupid Hufflepuff is and how he hated being sorted into the house and how even though we kept reporting his use of swear words and he will probably be banned soon, he will keep getting himself sorted back into Hufflepuff because he wants to keep insulting us. Yeah, I know, crazy right? I told him calmly that if he's not happy then lumpin' leave already. It's just a game, so you got sorted into Hufflepuff, so what? Then he started writing out all these racist insults towards me and some other Asians in the 'common room' and I just remembered wondering how old he was to be acting like that. So what I'm saying is, you should remember that there are still some weirdly mean and shallow minded people in the world and you should also remember the demographic of your audience. Like for me and Pottermore, most of the people there were twelve year olds or something, although not all of them act likewise. So with you and your blog, now and then there will be people who don't get you or say mean things about you because they are wired all wrong but it doesn't mean you should stop blogging for their sake.

    I would also like to say that Hufflepuff is the best house in the entire Potterverse and there is nothing wrong with being one!

    #HufflepuffPride :P

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    1. The Rocking HijabMay 22, 2013 at 7:23 AM

      I read this the first thing in the morning and now I feel like nothing can ruin my day. LOL. Thanks really. :)

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