Lost and Found

You sometimes think you want to disappear, but all you want is to be found.

Sometimes life brings you to an edge. You start panicking, thinking of everything, questioning things that you have done. Your palms get all sweaty and that is usually the moment that you feel like clinging onto something, just something, to give you the impression that hope still exists. You will realize He is always watching, and you feel the peace that you have never felt before. He is there, always, watching you like a silent teacher during a test. 

But sometimes you just want to give up. You grow tired of people, of your surrounding and you feel like giving in, and you start questioning, when will you ever grow out of this? When will you ever get out of this? Where is He? You start asking. And that moment you say to yourself, I want to disappear, I wish I have never been born. 

Not many will experience this, and perhaps only a select few will feel this, and you never know when it hits you because by the time you realized you already have some chips and cracks in your self worth, and those breaks take quite some time to patch up and even when you're finally in one piece, that scar still remains and you wish you would forget, then perhaps, you would forgive.

Be grateful for you are found in your worst moments, and be even more grateful that He found you first rather than the nonsense that worldly temporary remedies has to offer. 

You have changed, and so, go towards His direction, and you will never be wronged, you will never be grieved.

So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believers.
{'Ali Imran, 3 : 139}

This is dedicated for all who are having difficulties to go on and keep strong, and this includes myself. May Allah ease our journey.