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In the name of Allah,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran

Tomorrow will mark the third year after the first time i witness myself uttering the shahadah. So I'm gonna be exactly 3 years old tomorrow and boy, only Allah knows the things that i have experienced during this period. But still, alhamdulillah, it is all in the past now and though it has been almost 3 years being a Muslim, i feel that there hasn't been enough changes in myself for me to be proud of. Heck, do i even feel proud of myself?

But I am grateful for being able to live freely as a Muslim, though of course, being free comes with it's own risk.

During this 9 days break, a lot of things have happened and alhamdulillah, i am somewhat enlightened through some of the mini events that happened in this period.

As of last Saturday, it so happens that i went to pay a visit to my younger brother who is currently studying in INTI Nilai. Remembering the hurt that i felt when my mum informed that my dad was really angry at her for letting my younger bro go for an outing with me.

And who exactly am I, dad?

I learned to not care about the hurt that i felt because i know, my dad is only being like this because he is being ignorant.

For Eid Adha, I missed watching people performing the qurban but it doesn't spoil the mood or anything. I have only started celebrating Eid Adha for 3 years so really, how much did i miss anyways? Not much, that's for sure.

But really, in this 3 years, i have watched myself grow and alhamdulillah, in a good way but of course, painfully. Trying to cope up with everything really overwhelms me at times, but yeah, this too shall pass.

Unfortunately, it seems, i am starting to lose my mojo when it comes to writing. Sigh. Hopefully this state will eventually regress. InshaAllah.

So, a question to ponder on:

How long have we been a Muslim and how much have we accomplished in our preparation for akhirah?

Oh and yeah,

how long have we ACTUALLY been a Muslim, in the sense of REALLY REALLY being a Muslim and not just having the title as merely one of the info printed on paper to prove that we are a Muslim?

Till we meet again and salam alaik.



With much love from Shah Alam,
The Rocking Hijab.


ps: Akan bertolak pulang ke Kelantan pukul 9 malam ni. Doakan keselamatan. :)



We must hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know, & lose in order to gain. Because some lessons in life, are best learnt through pain.

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