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Si Kosong

In the name of Allah,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran






Last night, I dreamed of him again. Yeah, my dad keep on popping in my dreams lately. Woke up every morning feeling so empty, so disturbed.

Which explains my depressing status updates on the Facebook.

I asked a friend of mine last night, before I sleep that is, to advise me because I was feeling so lonely and so empty. Almost felt demotivated to do anything.

She said something that brought me back to reality, and she reminded me of something that I have forgotten for so long.

I was too busy trying to keep my relationship with everyone I love that I forgot to 'keep' my relationship with my One True Love, Allah subhana wa taala.

I've forgotten about Him, almost completely. No wonder I was feeling so empty, despite being in a room full of people, I feel so lonely and it was because I have neglected Him, and so He 'left' me. I know of course, Allah is always there, but then I keep on trying to entertain the other guests in my 'party' that I left Him in the corner, totally forgotten.

Perhaps this is the perfect reminder for me to always observe my ties with Allah.

So I will improve my relationship with Him, with the faith that, in doing so, He will keep my relationship with my beloved ones for me.


O Allah, give me strength to be a faithful lover and believer.




ps: I've only gotten to know about the truth of the Wall on Facebook. It seems that it is related to the Wall where the Jews go and mourn about their life or something. Kinda an 'ouch'-y moment for me cause yeah, before this I sometimes posted up depressing status updates and reblog sad tumblog posts. May Allah forgive my ignorance.




"Sometimes we can't just say "Allah has a better plan for us." 
We have to believe He does."
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  1. khainisaMarch 15, 2012 at 10:47 PM

    yes sis, we have Allah. ;)))

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  2. AnonymousMarch 16, 2012 at 12:24 AM

    Si Kosong reminds me to watak kartun dalam gempak tu hehhe.

    La tahzan ya ukhti (:

    Hasbunallahiwanikmalwakeel~

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  3. The Rocking HijabMarch 16, 2012 at 1:20 AM

    @khainisa:

    :)

    @anonymous:

    Oh. Not Gempak la. Lawak Kampus. heh

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  4. Iman Lurv IslamMarch 17, 2012 at 7:19 AM

    xpe, mari kita berusaha isikan kekosongan itu...InsyaALLAH, ALLAH akan sentiasa hampir utk bantu kita...

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