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Thoughts, as usual.


Making the decision to become a Muslim is a pretty hard decision but do you know what's hard?

Maintaining. 

The worst part is when you actually start out as a devout Muslim but only to decline more and more. You tend to get back to your old ways and I have always tried to remind myself over and over again, that, this journey that I took, will not be worth it if I waste my efforts by not adhering strictly to the Islamic teaching. No matter what, I made sure that I pray 5 times a day and that's how I know that I'm still keeping my imaan in check. As time goes by, it gets easier, sure, but it also gets easier to take things for granted. So yeah, it's quite the same, really. Reverting to Islam is actually quite overrated if you think of it so yes, it's no big deal. 

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Anyways, I arrive here in USM just yesterday and my back is still aching from the bus ride. I think I need to get my back checked because it keeps on hurting recurrently at the same area but I don't know when will I ever have the time to do so. 

I have lots of thing to do, not to mention our Ethnic exam this 18th of June which I have to ace by hook or by crook. If not, I might have to repeat the subject and you really don't want that to happen with other things queuing in line for you to go through. 

In my case, I have my 2nd Medical Continuous Assessment(CA) this 22nd of July and also 2nd and 3rd Dental CA this August. Each of these will contribute 5% for my finals exam, which will be next year in May. By September I will enter my 3rd year of Dental School, which will be my last year to be in the same class with them medical students, and also, my last year before my ultimate freedom of medical. 

But of course, no need to stress myself with the not so near future. I just need to, chill.

calm down crazy rabbit

The husband is going to Sabah this 7th of June for his Emergency Medicine elective and he's going to stay there for a month. But then he's going to spend his next one month of elective at the Neuroscience department here in HUSM so yeah, that fact itself kind of toned down the garuda in me. We have never been separated for more than 3 weeks so I think this will be quite a challenge for me.

For now, I just want Phase II to end already(and ace it of course) so that I can feel more like a dentist once I enter 4th year. InshaAllah.


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  1. ati shariffuddinJune 4, 2013 at 9:16 PM

    all the best dear... may Allah ease your way. amiin.. be strong okay?

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